A Day

I guess this is one of the good days, a nice sunny day strolling through a big park with my bike, but more importantly not arguing.

Turn

There demands a lot of trust within the types of photographs i pursue, i'm not sure i can ever be in breach of that trust as ive never really made work solely for my purposes. A photograph is shared amongst ourselves, there is something very personal there but ive always intended to show people my favorites.

Changes

Things have changed and im not sure how to go about making them better. Of course i care but i just see this is the right way. you know you will always have a place in my heart and i only hope it doesn't take long until we can be friends.

I've been in two minds over what images from summer i should be posting, they're mainly of you, sadly i think this image is a good summary of what we came to. It reminds me inside out of a Nan Goldin image, i know she loved the moments just after sex when a couple was strangely alienated from each other.

I dont want you to become a stranger, we shared so much.

Surprises

Considering my work tends to deal with alcohol influence and how much i like to indulge in playing with my reality, finding images you just don't remember is brilliant.

Goodbye

I will miss you, its at this point in our lives where we go off to different things, to experience life in a new way but theres always the fear of loosing a good friend. At this age i've had a lot of friends go off to university and a lot of them have come back different and i don't resent them in one bit as i understand i have changed immensely over the past few years.

You will go out, find new people and each will influence you in one way or another. you are responsible for cultivating my personality in many ways and i love you for that. with your absense i'm worried, as everyone would be, that we will grow apart.

don't forget who we are.

Another Loss

Im completely obsessed with a small moment where a person appears entirely absent. Its easy to see that our whole worlds revolve around ourselves, easy to understand that than it is to understand the absence of objectivity. I've never found anything objective, objectivity is an infinite idea, it will never exist, we can only try to get closer. There really is no truth, and not just truth in the strictest of senses because science fails profusely there, i have no truth, no reality.

When someone asks me what religious views i have, i have never been able to adequately answer it. Not in the sense that i am confused about where i stand on it, but more that its not really a concern. I have trouble beliving in reality let alone anything else.

i get the idea i just dont know with some things, i look for moments where people take time away. I want to escape most of the time, its not escape from society, not from people, not from myself but from reality.

So far, i find i sleep a lot to escape. the same goes for drinking, drinking isnt a full escapism as such but it clearly distorts my reality and i love that play.

Each mimics the inevitable we all face...